Friday, July 9, 2010
Drop the world...
Blood in my eyes
Hate in my heart
Love on mind
I've seen nights full of pain
Days are the same
You keep the sunshine
Save me the rain
I search but never find
Hurt but never cry
I work and forever try
But I'm cursed so never mind
And its worse but better times seem further and beyond
The top gets higher the more I climb
The spot gets smaller and I get bigger
Trying to get in where I fit in no room for a nigga
But soon for a nigga it'll be on mother fucker
Coz all this bullshit makes me strong mother fucker
These are the lyrics constituiting the first verse of Lil' Wayne's song Drop the World ft Eminem. Lil Wayne is one of my favourite artists and Eminem is my favourite artist. I like this particular song because I feel it describes me perfectly past, present and hopefully future.
So what do I mean by this let me give you an example:
Hate in my heart
Love on mynd
For real I have hate in my heart for my dad, step mum and life. I tired of all their bullshit. I think its a big part of me now. There was a time it actually consumed me. It made my think dark murderous thoughts. It made me think of slow painful revenge. Of power and using it to punish people. Don't worry its mostly gone now!:)
I think about love alot. A while back I could feel it all around me, or atleast I believved I did. I felt it from my family, friends and even people I met. These days I don't feel it as much. Only the really "strong" one, you know the type that come from direct family - brother, sisters, mother and one of my grandmas. From anyone else I don't feel it anymore. Don't get me wrong, I know its there I just don't feel it anymore. Anyway I find it ironic that the love is in my mind not my heart.
The rest of the lyrics also apply to me in other ways but I just wanted to talk about those two lines. Yes I feel broken. So what? Don't worry too much. Anyways as always peace!!!
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